Learning to love life by living through loss and mistakes. Lessons learned then gradually surfacing, letting go stripping naked to scream. I am not perfect, nor do I strive to be. I am alive in this world of face first falls in public break downs. I’m a retarded disfigured clown, dying to be heard for the simple art of letting this heavy wall finely fall. I’m an equal being of no race or color, a hallucination if you will. Sneaking into the lives of strangers and letting them fall apart to a new rhythm just to feel better.

~Blue October


This is what I brought you. This you can keep. This is what I brought you. You may forget me. I promise to depart just promise one thing. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. This is what I brought you. This you can keep. This is what I brought you. You may forget me. I promise my heart just promise to sing. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep. This is what I thought, I thought you’d need me. This is what I though so think me naїve. I’d promise you a heart you’d promise to keep. Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.


I change my color for you
I shed my coat with caution
I lack the beauty you display
See here they are the bruises
And some where self inflected
And some showed up along the way
So I nod my head I’m ready for the world to see
The secret I kept here inside the man you thought I’d be
Slip into to comma call
The comma where I calm myself down
Here comes excuses
Why I let you down
Stand By for another break down
send off the alarm
Is this the Chameleon boy I swore I would become
Chameleon Boy
Chameleon Boy
So now we’ve come upon the hardest thing I’ve ever done
It’s telling you that I’m a mess
What sort of mess?
I mean as self destructive gasoline
The kind that strips you of your best
And while I play instead
The way that most would end up dead
You sleep alone at home and wish that I where in our bed
With this I’m telling you
My color changes back to blue
How do I ask you this,
Will you help me through?
Stand By for another break down
send off the alarm
Is this the Chameleon boy I swore I would become
Stand by for another break down
Send off the alarm
Is this the Chameleon Boy I swore I would become
Chameleon Boy
Chameleon Boy
I try to think of all the people I looked up to
While growing up who would I be?
Now the twisted part
Where did all my idles end up?
They’ve all passed away
Passed away
Stand by
It’s the Chameleon Boy
Stand by
It’s the Chameleon Boy
Chameleon Boy
I’m Chameleon Boy
Chameleon Boy
I’m Chameleon Boy